Are you on the mountain top or in the valley below?? On the mountain, screaming, dancing, shooting from the rooftops and rejoicing at the top of your lungs
~OR~ in the bottom of the valley learning life lessons, going through drama, feeling as if you have hit rock bottom.
This is the question of the day.
I am most definitely in a valley season. I am being tried in the fire and am walking through the valley of the shadow of death. ~*For me the valley of the shadow of death or the valley of dry bones is Texas*~
But even in the midst of trials and tribulations I know that God has not left nor forsaken me. I am in the midst of one of the hardest times in my life. I was talking to my mom in the car the other day and said, "I do not understand how come people still call or message me asking for scriptures or prayer or inspiration. I am going through so much of my own crap How can I possibly help someone else??" My mom said, "because they see some something in you. You don't waver with the tide, you are sure and steady. Your faith is strong through good times and bad times and they can see the strength in you even when you don't see it your self".
Hmmmm, Could this be true? I guess so, even though I don't feel strong or sure or steady, Hell on some days I don't even feel blessed! I guess it is a good thing my life is not based on feelings huh?
I commented on a friends facebook status that we all go through Mountain and Valley seasons and the key is knowing that God is with us during both. It wasn't until after I wrote that for my friend that I actually looked at it and said to my self wow, that is so true!
I am unemployed, half of Texas has one of my resumes and I spend more time on job sites filling out applications then I spend with my family! Out of all the connections, interviews, and networking I've been involved in over the past 12 months NOT ONE has resulted in employment. I have a daughter about to give birth any day now, two major holidays coming up, my son's birthday coming, my grand-daughter's birthday coming, family coming from out of town for the holidays, all of this before the end of the year and I do not have a dime and of course a load of unpaid bills and creditors calling me nonstop. DAMN!! Could my life get any SHITTIER???
Of course it could.
I could be dead, but I'm not; My children could be dead, but they are not; My daughter could be having her baby in New York hundreds of miles away from me, but she's not she is right here with me getting the love and support she needs; I could be alone and destitute, but I'm not. I am surrounded by family who love me!
So yea, I may be broke, tired and frustrated walking through this long, dark valley BUT I know that I am NOT in this alone! I have family by my side, at times walking with me through this valley. I have friends who are always willing to listen as I shout out in frustration from the bottom of the valley (Thanks, Adrienne, I love you more than you know!). But most of all I have Jesus, who picks me up when I stumble and fall to my knees in this dark valley and who is my life preserver when I feel like I am drowning in the abyss of my own tears. He is the one who whispers to me in the darkness of this valley and lets me know that there is light on the other side.
So yes my faith is strong! Even on my worst days, when I don't feel strong, or feel blessed, I KNOW THAT I AM!! I know that this is but a season and will not last forever. I know that whether in the Valley or on the Mountain top the "SON" will still rise!!
While I am being sustained by God's grace, I have FAITH that I will soon step into a Mountain Top season!
Hebrews 11:1 - Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
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